im stucked. not sure how to move on from here. i have NO feel to study for exams. i felt so helpless now. having just missed 2 main papers and thought there were supp papers to help me, and that bloody sch just told me the exam timetable was planned for that particular batch for that particular year 1.
what's the freaking use of having the freaking supp paper if it doesnt help students from all batches but only that particular batch?
freaking sch have freaking system which simply just sux.
why am i studying?? i felt so lost. i dont wanna feel this way. it's so demoralising.
i'm agitated and frustrated. i kinda cant feel the logic behind me studying and suffering. should i have just gone for an advanced diploma instead of the damn degree which takes such a helplessly long time?
in debt for things that arent mine. kinda felt stupid suddenly. why am i so weak?
why cant i say NO? just wanna make others happy, how abt yourself, cindy?
give me some support that i'm doing the right things.
tell me im in the right job.
tell me im in the right course.
tell me im doing ok.
tell me i can let my mum retire soon....
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
apart?
hmmm... it's 2nd Oct. yesterday was 1st Oct and kinda our 1 year 5 month anniversary.
but it seems like it's only together for 1 year 3months. due to the fact that, maybe we're too busy? maybe i had a hectic travelling schedule? i've been travelling for the past 1 month to 3 different countries which, till now im kinda tired physically and mentally.
when i finally got back and i looked forward to rest and go home or meet him some of the weekdays, he had tuition or i have classes. when can i have his time to meet him or when can i have my time to meet him or rest?
work demands, studies flung. and we sort of drifted apart... why?
i think we lack communication...we aint as loving as before..maybe coz we aint as free as before? :(
but it seems like it's only together for 1 year 3months. due to the fact that, maybe we're too busy? maybe i had a hectic travelling schedule? i've been travelling for the past 1 month to 3 different countries which, till now im kinda tired physically and mentally.
when i finally got back and i looked forward to rest and go home or meet him some of the weekdays, he had tuition or i have classes. when can i have his time to meet him or when can i have my time to meet him or rest?
work demands, studies flung. and we sort of drifted apart... why?
i think we lack communication...we aint as loving as before..maybe coz we aint as free as before? :(
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